You realize that life is something to be constructed.
To find your place in the world is your first task. Your life is your most fundamental reality; you should occupy yourself with it.
It is your task and you can no longer throw the balls out of your court; you cannot blame your parents for not understanding you or the teacher for coming down on you. Now is the time to take the bull by the horns.
As such, what you have to ask yourself is: What kind of life do I want to have?
No one can replace you in the making of that decision; it is personal and not transferable